..an entry i dug somewhere..hidden beneath the cobwebs of time... facing mortality...
When someone passes away, I cannot help but ponder on mortality issues. Left in a daze, it seems that everything goes on a blur, like the world suddenly turns to a halt.
I was gripped by the unexpected demise of my tito. He spit out blood and seconds after that, there was no vital signs detected.
My lola was near tears while recalling what had transpired before his death.
This kind of leaving the world with your loved ones having the faintest idea that you would succumb to the eternal unknown is something that is somewhat unbearable.
Death is really like a thief who goes into the night and by the time you woke up, the person you hold dear to your heart is suddenly gone, never to return again.And there you are, left with emptiness, which no one could ever fill.
| 5/25/2005 02:29:00 pm
To Do List: Revise slides presentation for GE-Tungsram Acquisition Draft Project consulting paper Update on wedding details of Ate Alice Check whats available on Books for Less online siteStart organizaing lil trinkets at home
| 5/17/2005 12:24:00 pm
Last time I checked, this article is still available on the net pala. This was also featured in Phil. Daily Inquirer last January 20, 2003. It was also available in their archives pero since sobrang tagal na, wala na sya.I tried searching kse my name in google and the first time I laid my eyes on the search results, I was really taken aback..Hehehe.Check this out:
Heaven's Kitchen The Varsitarian UST Publishing House, 2002 110 pages
The young writers of "Heaven's Kitchen" choose to reconstitute the family by a return to the traditional basics. By adhering to one's good sense, the Varsitarian seems to say, homes will never be provisional.Brave thoughts of Pinoy youth on family and faith By Jose Wendell P. Capili Contributor Inquirer News Service 'Nurturing our soul'
AS Manila hosts the World Meeting of Families this month, it would be worthwhile to look into the thoughts of young people about the world, their condition and their aspirations. "Heaven's Kitchen," a book of prayers and reflections, should somehow provide us that peek.
The book collects the inspirational essays and prayers that first came out in the paper's Witness (religion) section under the column that now sports the book's title.
According to seminarian Eldric Peredo, the paper's associate editor, the articles were meant "to provide some relief from the hard-nosed news and feature stories" that the paper usually carried. The column became so popular that, to student circles in and out of UST, it became synonymous with articles passionately dealing with faith and reason.
Several entries in "Heaven's Kitchen" problematize "black" and "white" as signifiers of a fundamental polarization of human worth-superiority/inferiority.
'...But my teacher said if you won't go to Mass, you'll go to hell,' the boy said. The woman smiled and said, 'Better me than you, my son.'
For instance, A.R.Ariola's (my name would go here, i just don't want a lot of people to see my blog when they do a search on the net, hehehe) "Spiritual Makeover" depicts the need to reassemble an identity out of the refractions of material deprivation as it talks about an "impulsive shopper": "My friend... confided that this was her way to compensate for the things that she lacked... We so pamper ourselves with products that can enhance our appearance that we tend to neglect that part of us which deserves the much-needed nurturing-our soul."Facing fear
It is equally brave for many writers in the anthology, young as they are, to face fear squarely-fear of exposure, the fear that one's deepest emotions would be taken as nonsense. Law student Marlon Castor's "A Mother's Undying Love" affirms this and betrays a commitment to feminist inflections amid contemporary male politics in the anecdote of a mother who urges her son to go to Mass alone since she will have to do the laundry: "'But my teacher said if you won't go to Mass, you'll go to hell,' the boy said. The woman smiled and said, 'Better me than you, my son.'"
Castor's "Picking Up One's Cross," on the other hand, comes to terms with the masculine persona's deep recesses: "Most of my college buddies were surprised to learn that I was back in school. Before, they had to literally drag me to attend class."
Michelle Jeanne Dompor's "On and Off" moves from silence to coherent speech by cultivating the interior life: "I went to the pew, knelt down and bowed my head. There I prayed in silence..."
In "The Inner Voice," Christian Bautista shows how young people accumulate emotional baggage because of the chaos of never-ending possibilities (the hegemonic world of grown-up people): "At a low point of my life, I once blamed God for not giving me something I sorely wanted. Looking back, I cringe at the fact that I was dumb enough to think that God had it for me."
Marie Carisa Ordinario's "Letting Go" shows how young people need compassion and greater understanding as they undergo rites of passage, like a girl who has to face the prospect of separation from her sister who has married: "Suddenly I felt alone... There is no other way to go around it... my sister may no longer live with us... [but] she is happy and having the 'greatest adventure' of her life."
In discussing faith, families and human worth, some young writers tend to agree with Derrida when the latter deconstructed the opposition between private and public. His trick was to recognize that in every textual production there was the itinerary of a constantly thwarted desire to make the text explain.
Meanwhile, the young writers of "Heaven's Kitchen" choose to reconstitute the family by a return to the traditional basics. By adhering to one's good sense, the Varsitarian seems to say, homes will never be provisional.
"Heaven's Kitchen" concludes by urging readers to find rootedness in faith, family and friends.
"Heaven's Kitchen" is available at the UST Bookstore (tel. 731-3522/3101 local 8252 or 8278), Varsitarian (731-3101 local 8235) or selected bookstores.
| 5/16/2005 06:02:00 pm
Exam's over and I'm back to my usual blogging mode. After class we headed off to the mall to have some fun.
Bowling. Cinemas (The Wedding Date).
Here are some of the pics.
See them here.
| 5/16/2005 11:43:00 am
Yep, you've read that right. I'm not sure if I that is something I should be happy about. Hehehehe. Over the weekend, I've been bombarded with messages from friends and former classmates telling me that they've spotted me on a DOLE commercial on ETC channel. The same goes with my sister, too since we both had that ambushed interview by the ETC veejay while on Dole's White Latino Nights party in Eastwood Central sometime last March. Since we don't have any cable subscriptions at home, we weren't able to see our faces yet on the said tv commercial.Just to give you an idea on the party.White Latino Nights
Dressed in our white ensembles, my sister and I hailed a cab at Philcoa to Eastwood Central Plaza, Libis to attend a singles' party. I won two entrance tickets to a Latino event. We downed three fruit cocktails, in different concoctions, eyed the finger foods hungrily and ate them, enjoyed the Latino beats, cheered the searchees on the dating game, watched in amusement the bartending contest, ohh-ed and ahh-ed at the mini fashion show, snapped pictures, strolled the place, played my maracas, seen G Toengi up close as she was the guest, and got interviewed by ETC veejay. We didn't get her name though. She's half-Korean and she's really nice and madaldal- really fits her job. She got us talking while watching the fashion show. There are really cool prizes up for grabs-10,000 for the winner in amateur bartending contest and trip for two to Boracay for the dating game winner. An organizer approached us if we want to go in the dating game. And my sister and I were like pushing each other around. Good thing, none of us dared. We'll probably wont live it down. Hehehehe.... We really had a blast! Its my first time to see the place. But my sister has been frequenting the place for some time now. We got home in one piece. Phew! And guess what, we saw Rolypoly on the jeep bound to Almar. He's on his way home after a drinking spree with his classmates in celebration of their last official day of classes. We got home a few minutes before midnight.There you go....
| 5/09/2005 05:00:00 pm
The author of this blog is currently on study leave. As her comprehensive exam draws near, she is mustering enough control to shun away from things that might eat away whatever free time there is that she devotes to her academic pursuit. During this period, blogging is a no-no. She also wishes to extend her gratitude to one of her support system, the LEKATS.
| 5/04/2005 06:02:00 pm
Funny that I found this law in economics very apt on how I would describe my blogging activity recently. To further illustrate, after blogging for sometime on a daily basis, my marginal utility after creating an entry would be quite high. Then, this would be sustained by constant blogging (creating entries). But after doing this over and over, my total utility would start to decline as blogging becomes less frequent. The only loophole in this situation is that there is no consumption of a good. But similarly, blogging could be substituted in this case.
And somehow ceteris paribus (assuming all things are constant) is somewhat nonexistent since I've been through a truckload of work lately. That would contribute to the negative sloping of the demand curve.
| 5/04/2005 03:08:00 pm
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{*In a NUTSCHELLE*}
Just turned 23. Not that young anymore and not too old either. One of the few reasons why she had a good excuse to mess up her life and still get away with it.
She is a self-confessed blog addict. The blog design reflects the total opposite of her personality. She is innocence personified - prim and proper, goody-two-shoes but could turn your life into a nightmare at the least provocation. Nothing is too complicated that her not-so-average mind could comprehend.
{*Profile*}
I took delight in trivial things. I could cry bucket of tears over light drama flicks while feel-good movies make me feel fuzzy all over. Despite the sheer crappiness of horror stories, I still hate those gory and morbid scenes that will leave anyone with that sick to the gut feeling. I love the sound of the waves crashing into the shore and the heavy downpours on lazy afternoons. Although i'm almost always caught with a bunch of people, I savor moments in solitude--staring into blank spaces, totally leaving the worldly troubles behind and just lingering in silence. I'm a self-confessed bargain hunter. New finds never fail to fascinate me--it make my melatonin levels shoot sky-high.
{*Career*}
Corporate girl who commutes from three to five hours on daily basis; started being a corporate slave a few weeks before graduation;
she's been working for two years; just a few months shy of getting that much-coveted MBA degree from an international academe.
She wants to carve a niche in her pursuit for world domination (as if she's bent on it!). Future career plans include being a
financial journalist or lifestyle writer; preschool teacher, etc.
{*Capricorn woman *}
The Capricorn woman has a strong ability to understand human nature the way no one else does.
She has the ability to analyze and understand any concept well and possess a good memory.
It is not easy to deceive her. She has a very business savvy nature.
Conservative by nature, prudent and economical - a Capricorn women can amass a lot of wealth in her life.
However it is also not uncommon for Capri woman to indulge in sporadic spending spree - leading to temporary financial hassles.
{*Random Things*}
RAVES :-)
1. people who could carry a good conversation 2. combing beaches 3. furred pets 4. nice bed to retire every night 5. Shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella 6. Body Shop's Moonflower scents 7. Marks and Spencer's Waterlily line 8. serendipity (not the movie) 9. a bowl of hot soup 10.moments in solitude 11. mango shake 12. chocolate chips 13. white sandals 14. pearl earrings 15. flared-cut denim 16. McDonalds 17. free invites to special events 18. good, old love songs 19. herbal teas
RANTS ;-(
1. heavy traffic 2. appointments delayed at the last minute 3. people who hate me for who I am 4. long queues 5. allergies 6. oil prices shooting up 7. boring seminars you've spent a good amount on 8. racial discrimination 9. bad hair days 10.carbon monoxide 11.sold-out tickets 12.freezing temperature 13.clutterd spaces 14.Calculus subject 15.excessive politicking 16.mismatched outfits
{*....*}
I'd so love to go to Boracy after few years of blowing my chance to go there on a free acommodation basis.***
I want to go on 5,000 shopping spree for free or get all the books on my must-read list at Power Books w/o shelling any bucks.***
I want to enrol in yoga class.**
I want to hone my culinary expertise by going to cooking classes.*
I want to do a commentary on a place long-forgotten.**
I want to be involved again on a project funded by international organization.**
I want to explore caves and tell the difference between stalactites and stalagmite up close.***
I want to build the world and furnish it with love (from a song).***
I wouldn't mind doing undercover job.*
I'd trade places with a wanderlust stuck in some chic city.
{*Personal Links*}
@. Heaven's Kitchen article.@
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@. My Grad Pics.@
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{*What's in a Name?*}
ANNA
Gender: Feminine
Usage: English, Italian, German, Dutch, Scandinavian, Finnish, Greek, Hungarian, Polish, Russian, Czech, Bulgarian, Icelandic, Catalan, Breton, Biblical
Pronounced: AN-a (English), AHN-nah
Latinate form of HANNAH. It appears briefly in the New Testament belonging to a prophetess who recognized Jesus as the Messiah. It was also borne by an 18th-century empress of Russia and by the the main character in Tolstoy's 'Anna Karenina', a woman forced to chose between her son and her lover.
RACHEL
Gender: Feminine
Usage: English, Jewish, French, German, Biblical
Pronounced: RAY-chel (English), ra-SHEL (French)
Means "ewe" in Hebrew. She was the favourite wife of Jacob and the mother of Joseph and Benjamin in the Old Testament.
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{*Links*}
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@. Mervyn, the ex-seminarian .@
@. Michiko, the pink lady .@
@. Eloi, Mrs. Orlando Bloom .@
@. Mark, the Thomson hunk '04 .@
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